There are times when you feel ‘normal’
Then come days making you feel worthless
Seeing what a beautiful, successful lives other people have
And what a sad one you have
You’re doubting yourself
You’re trying to justify whether you should do extreme coping mechanisms like you did before
As if something inside you triggers that emergency button
That you have locked, kept safely away
But then your emotions drastically wake up
Knocking you up right in the border between your normality and insanity
Your fear, your sadness, your depression, your worries…
They are all VALID
The nauseous feeling you have in your stomach
A quiver of pain, trembling, shaking right below your eyelids
That causing you to cry but you know crying doesn’t wash things away
You might get an hour or two of relief but deep inside you
You still feel soaring mountains of agony, afflictions, suffering
None of the things you want in life come into reality
You question your life, you question your values, you even come back to the basic question that always triggers you: why are you still alive?
But you have managed to survive so far
Even though you are in deep pain
Because life is not perfect
So are human beings, we are not meant to be perfect and flawless
What you are feeling: everything you feel, even what you consider as unworthy
They are all VALID
Your fear, your sadness, your depression, your worries
They are all VALID
Because what you feel is real
Your feeling is real though it might be different from what other people think or see
But you ought to accept them, those damn worries
You ought to accept that you are not normal, and never will be
You ought to accept your flaws, and that life is full of them
You just hope someday people will accept you, unconditionally, for no reason and not for what they want you to be
Be you, and be kind to yourself, at least for tonight
You’ll make it to tomorrow, that’s all that matters
healing through yoga 