I am speechless. No words to utter yet, a million words linger. Floating above my eyes, inside my brain. I can’t let them out. You know when things came as a surprise. It doesn’t matter whether they are good or bad, your first reaction is just an extreme shock. Like some strangers just put aContinue reading “A memo for you”
Category Archives: depression
after practice #ashtanga
i sighed heavilyfinally i was done for the dayshower is ready it callsyet, i slumped my body into bedthe scorching sun didn’t raise me a little the last three hours i confronted myselfjust me, my body and my bloody emotionsi surrendered those frustrating temptationsto go further, be better, more refined but what is more refinedContinue reading “after practice #ashtanga”
Time has stopped
I have just lived over a quarter of century and crawled approaching my 30s. Time flies, huh? Yet today feels really weird though. In fact, not just today but yesterday’s night seemed endless. It felt like the time wasn’t moving at all, like a thousand year old corpse, or the clock hanging on the wallContinue reading “Time has stopped”
Appreciating the outer self
I feel so intensely the delights of shutting oneself up in a little world of one’s own, with pictures and music and everything beautiful. – Virginia Woolf Don’t judge the book by its cover is probably one of the most overshared phrases yet sometimes, it can be hypocritical too. You’ve probably heard that some researchContinue reading “Appreciating the outer self”
What’s going on with me? #ashtanga #nadishodana #mentalhealth
Well, hello dear blog. I must admit that it’s very hard to pick it up again after I left for a couple of months. I tried to commit to post at least two posts per month but it didn’t go very well. I was on hiatus for a good two months. And writing this againContinue reading “What’s going on with me? #ashtanga #nadishodana #mentalhealth”
Practicing yoga through depression
As I’m writing this, there are a lot of things in my mind. And I haven’t done my yoga practice today. It’s very easy for my energy to be drained although I’m mostly teaching off the mat. Have I gone mad? What is happening? Am I experiencing a depression relapse? How bad is it? Honestly, I am very tiredContinue reading “Practicing yoga through depression”
What the heck is self-love anyway? #mentalhealth #ashtanga
The term self-love has become a household name in the wellness industry. That we should embrace ourselves as they are. That we should love our bodies unconditionally. But what is self-love actually? For someone who grapples with mental health issues, the term self-love sounds very vague to me and sometimes I do need a littleContinue reading “What the heck is self-love anyway? #mentalhealth #ashtanga”
Real vibes, and NOT just good vibes only, please. #yoga #mentalhealth
During my asana practice, there often times when thoughts such as what would happen if I were not a yoga practitioner? What would happen if I were not able-bodied? What would happen if I were seriously ill and couldn’t even learn about yoga, let alone wrote a blog post about it? And many more. ButContinue reading “Real vibes, and NOT just good vibes only, please. #yoga #mentalhealth”
Should you attempt 108 Surya Namaskar? #yoga
If you would like to see the video of me doing 108 Surya Namaskar, click here. For hatha yogis and yoginis, they would understand the meaning, benefits and wisdom of the 108 Surya Namaskar. But let me just briefly explain for those who don’t know or have never done it before. Surya Namaskar or SunContinue reading “Should you attempt 108 Surya Namaskar? #yoga”
Borderline notes
There are times when you feel ‘normal’Then come days making you feel worthlessSeeing what a beautiful, successful lives other people haveAnd what a sad one you haveYou’re doubting yourselfYou’re trying to justify whether you should do extreme coping mechanisms like you did beforeAs if something inside you triggers that emergency buttonThat you have locked, keptContinue reading “Borderline notes”
healing through yoga 