ashtanga – healing through yoga

Pincha Mayurasana #ashtanga

This pose has taught me a lot. With worsening covid-19 situation in Indonesia, uncertainties in many things in my life loom large. I cancelled several trips. I wasn’t able to travel to study yoga and so on. But what keeps me grounded on most days is the ashtanga practice. There are days I am beyondContinue reading “Pincha Mayurasana #ashtanga”

It cuts deeper

Did I just go back to square one when it comes to mental illnesses? Oh no honey, you were far back, regressing to about minus 100. Yep, that’s how I have been feeling lately. The agony cuts so deep, even deeper than the previous ones that I had years before. I have been suspecting aContinue reading “It cuts deeper”

after practice #ashtanga

i sighed heavilyfinally i was done for the dayshower is ready it callsyet, i slumped my body into bedthe scorching sun didn’t raise me a little the last three hours i confronted myselfjust me, my body and my bloody emotionsi surrendered those frustrating temptationsto go further, be better, more refined but what is more refinedContinue reading “after practice #ashtanga”

What’s going on with me? #ashtanga #nadishodana #mentalhealth

Well, hello dear blog. I must admit that it’s very hard to pick it up again after I left for a couple of months. I tried to commit to post at least two posts per month but it didn’t go very well. I was on hiatus for a good two months. And writing this againContinue reading “What’s going on with me? #ashtanga #nadishodana #mentalhealth”

Practicing yoga through depression

As I’m writing this, there are a lot of things in my mind. And I haven’t done my yoga practice today. It’s very easy for my energy to be drained although I’m mostly teaching off the mat. Have I gone mad? What is happening? Am I experiencing a depression relapse? How bad is it? Honestly, I am very tiredContinue reading “Practicing yoga through depression”

What the heck is self-love anyway? #mentalhealth #ashtanga

The term self-love has become a household name in the wellness industry. That we should embrace ourselves as they are. That we should love our bodies unconditionally. But what is self-love actually? For someone who grapples with mental health issues, the term self-love sounds very vague to me and sometimes I do need a littleContinue reading “What the heck is self-love anyway? #mentalhealth #ashtanga”